Since August I have thought there is a way to end the stress by ending myself but, there is life someplace out there — maybe that can be happier. God, just one day at a time right now. Yesterday this was the sunset on New Year’s Day.
I am the simplest person.
If only I had not let my husband control everything.
I did, because I was young and dumb.
Why did I hand over the reins to 27 years of my life to someone who never really loved me first?
I don’t know.
Sitting here today, I know there are two ways out.
One is ending myself, the other ending the marriage.
In the meantime, I am trying not to have a heart attack over what he has done.
It’s getting dark and cold.
I’m going to wash the dishes and continue on the house.
I gave him 27 years of my life and I loved him.
I really did.