The level at which men can actually hurt women.
31 years without love.
He has forced me to lose everything that I worked so hard for.
My house is the last of it, for he has forced me to sell it and it’s Christmas.
Last Christmas, I was there.
I don’t want to sell it.
I owe very little on it. He borrowed against it.
I could go home tonight if I can get an advance.
While it has been on the market I have exhausted every cent I had.
Now, I will have to rent it out and be trapped up here like this.
I look at ways to end it all the time.
So, you are my big fat hope.
How about we just pitch one of those films to someone so I can go home and have Christmas. I know what the film will bring.
$300K is utterly nothing compared to that.
I just need a little help.
Okay I hope you read this.
I’m quite serious.
I need to change my life or it is over.
Can’t do this any more.
Not another minute.
Last year, I had Christmas.
This is my house. Last month the realtor had an offer and it almost sold.
I was going East to get a shack I did not care.
The deal is off.
So I am in this death house you see above.
This was the house where I was supposed to be a wife and have a child like you did.
Only he never cared about that. Or me.
It’s just a little Craftsman. Nothing big. But I loved it and it was home.
He isn’t a man like you are.
I’m a Capricorn and it is very hard to ask for help but I am.
You will be rich after even three films.
I just don’t want to die in this room in a house full of all his dead mothers things.
I’d like to keep my roses.
I’d like to stay alive.
In 2012, I still had long hair.
Before he forced my nerves to chew it off, you know? Like a trapped animal does in a cage.
So this is me then.
I love this pic of you. The colonnades remind me of the house where I lived at 13 the year that Dad left. It was up on Dover.
I think I love the honesty in your face.
So, I’m tucking it in, because you are the star, of my writing. I wasn’t going to just give it to anyone. Actually it’s pretty good, you know?
And you are really going to look good wrapped in it.